Tuesday, November 6, 2012

RAGE POST ON PRESIDENTIAL ELECTIONS USA.

Hello people hope you guys have been well! :) as you all should know by now THE PRESIDENTIAL ELECTIONS FOR USA IS CURRENTLY GOING ON :D So, like promised in the title, this is a rage post which is not suppose to pose as any form of insult to any of the candidates at all :), disclaimer done, so let's move on to the rage bitch part.

So this morning I tweeted something saying that we should vote for obama, it was all for fun and because I genuinely respect Obama as a person and I do think he has been a really good president for the US, plus I really LOVE the fact he is PROCHOICE. But apparently, this particular person had something against the very fact I just support Obama. He started saying things like, "HE'S PROCHOICE WHAT GOOD IS THAT?!" and things like "he says gay marriage is ok! what can the future be with him?" I didn't really understand his super strong reaction and asked him why he makes prochoice sound like a bad thing, and he replied "means you have to go against humanity's decisions. And feel free to sin against God!'. So by this point I could tell he was really super bloody against Obama just because Obama is freaking prochoice, so I decided to reply him that Obama was simply respecting people's decisions to be who they want to be, God gave a free will, so nobody really has the right to take that away. He went, "respecting is one decision, but knowing the truth is another altogether. Obama doesn't know the truth at all", at this point I really didn't want to bother arguing with him because well, I respect his decision and his views but I intend to keep mine. Oh btw, I have NO IDEA what he meant by the "truth" if you guys are having the question in your head as well. I really have NO IDEA. I just take it that he meant the truth as in the truth is to not allow gay marriages and things like that.

So I thought that episode was over, because I could really feel the tension, like I was replying him for fun but his replies were super pushy and super set in his ways. I really do love this guy as a friend, but yeah, apparently after the next episode I take it that I'm not good enough to be his friend.

So in the evening after I got home, I received a reply from THIS SAME GUY regarding another tweet of mine which I tweeted when I was in class after watching Michelle Obama's speech saying I really wanted Obama to win, and he started saying "BOO BOO! Sorry don't get personal :) hahaha" so I took it that he was joking and just replied him in a joking matter saying "IT'S PERSONAL. YOU IDIOT. HAHAH. I KIDDD :)". He suddenly replied me "I know you are a sweet catholic girl" and I'm once again in the what-the-hell-why-suddenly-pull-in-the-religion-stunt-again mode, but I still thought he was joking and I was slightly annoyed he kept trying to pull in catholicism so I just tweeted him to "don't make all catholics seem so blinded by faith eh! Pro choice! It's like PRO FREE WILL!".

He on the other hand decided to drive the conversation into a whole new other direction and went "if you say so why not we use condoms & have sex before marriage", at this point, my patience was running bloody low, so I simply replied "so if Obama isn't president, Romney can stop people from using condoms and premarital sex?" and he replies me "at least he(romney) doesn't promote it" and claimed that Christian Catholic churches forced to practice against our belief because of Obama. WHATTHEHELLLL. I was still trying to keep the conversation fun and non-personal so I just said "Obama doesn't promote, hahah, accepting doesn't equal promoting" and I decided to drop in the "love thy neighbor" quote in there as well. Just love everyone equally, we're not God to judge, if God can love gays equally, what gives us the right to discriminate them and not give them equal jobs?! 

He then replies, the most fucking offensive tweet I've ever gotten EVER, "well I guess you got blinded by secularism congrats the devil has won u:) cheers all the best". That was fucking low. Fucking brainless. Fucking uncalled for. I was so pissed off, I still am. If y'all didn't know I get really pissed when people comment on others' faith lives. Not just mine. No one has the bloody right to deem anyone "less holy" than he or she is. Honestly, WHO HE HELL DOES HE THINK HE IS?! I think it's utter bullshit that JUST BECAUSE I SUPPORT OBAMA, I'M AN ATHEIST. 

The worst part is he continues to make a huge deal about it saying I MADE A MISTAKE. Whatthehell. Really. No idea what his problem is. If he was gonna talk religious, he's the one with tattoos and shit 
"Do not cut your bodies for the dead or put tattoo marks on yourselves.
I am the Lord." - Leviticus 19:28
please by all means don't be a pretentious idiot, self righteous fool.

I really get super annoyed when people blame Obama for everything, the recession, gay's existence, premarital sex etc, please don't be so bloody deluded that THESE THINGS WOULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED IF OBAMA WASN'T PRESIDENT. I think it's never okay to bring in someone's religion, ever. Okay. It's not okay to say it's not personal and then pull in my religion.

The best part is that he's making it seem like I asked for his opinion when I really wasn't, he replied my tweets and he was super stuck up and set in his ways. Annoying asshole. He based his whole ANTI OBAMA thing on this ONE SMALL AREA ALONE. NARROW MINDED DOUCHE.

Just to be cleared I'm not promoting homosexuality at all, I'm just like Obama, I'm prochoice, it's not my life, I have no right to dislike them or disrespect them because they're humans just like ME. They are created by God and they are LOVED by Him as well. No one has the right to look down on them or take away their freedom or rights.

I STILL WANT OBAMA TO WIN. BITE ME.

Peace out people! :)
xoxo
Sammy Valentina ♥

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Sorta first official day of school :D

Heyyy guyyys :D 
So today was like, the FIRST official day of school since yesterday was IS, so it doesn't really count :). So, in the morning I kinda overslept :/ by like 10 mins. IT'S ALOT OKAY. When you live like halfway across the country from your school, 10 mins is really a lot of time :(. So yeah, I rushed a shower and practically flew out of the house. I was like deliberating between taking the shuttle bus or 151e in the shower. Usually by the time I get to the shuttle bus the queue will be really long, and since it's the first day of school and everything I thought it would really be alot longer than usual, but if I took 151e I would have to CROSS THE OVERHEAD BRIDGE TO SCHOOL. THE HORROR. Ah wells, in the end I stuck to taking 151e, since I took it before and even though it's costly, it really doesn't make a difference since I keep forgetting to buy my bus concession and I'm paying the adult fare since I'm in poly. (pfffft) Haha, the bus was CRAZY CROWDED I TELL YOU. Thank God, I stay closer to the interchange so I managed to get a seat :D whoot whoot! HAHA, met up with Denise at munch and we headed to class together, we kinda threw away half a cup of our drinks each :( oopsie. It was SUPER AWKWARDDDD when we reached the class coz everyone was just doing their own thing and like, we didn't even know anyone there. It was really really awkward.

Even when our tutorial started, we still didn't know half our classmates' names. OMG, to be honest, I know their names coz I keep checking mel for the groups and stuff. But we really didn't talk at all. SOOO AWKWARD. HAHA, gracomm was okay I guess :), so far I'm fineee with it I? I LOVE THE LECTURER :D HE'S SO CUTE, LIKE A LITTLE ASIAN SANTA CLAUS! THE WAY HE TALKS AND EVERYTHING. But yeah, the software has a lot more stuff compared to photoshop :( so I'm very very concerned considering the fact I really suck at photoshop or anything related to digital stuff at all. -sigh- Hopefully I'll get the hang of it soon :(

After class, Denise and I went to Sakae sushi after getting my new textbooks. OH MY GOSH, THE TEXTBOOKS ARE SO HEAVY AND EXPENSIVE. THEY COST NEARLY $70. NOT COOL MAN. NOT COOL. Lunch at Sakae went a lot better than expected :) Hee. Was really great seeing Denise again! Gracine and Gabrielle joined us after awhile. Omg, there was this one moment whereby Denise was showing the "LOSER" hand sign and asked Gabby to read the hand, both Gabby and I said "L" at the same time. HAHAH. It was really really funny! After lunch we had a 5 hour lecture. SUPER EXCITING. I'll blog more when I get home or something :D need to head to church for wedding rehearsal! :)

With Love, 
Sammy Valentina ♥
P.S WATCH THE PEPSI COMMERCIAL WITH BEYONCE, PINK AND BRITNEY IN IT. HOT HOT STUFF.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Imma SWOLLEN PIG and my time at beach ops.

HELLO PEOPLE :D haha
It's nearing the last week of my holidays :'( WEHHHH. HAHA, okay I've got 3 things to address in this post 1. How I spent my holidays 2. Why I'm a swollen pig 3. WHAT I'M INTENDING TO DO THIS LAST WEEK IF MY FACE ALLOWS IT :D 

1. HAHA, I've been working at sentosa beach operations these past few weeks :) it's been an awesome experience. If y'all didn't know THIS IS MY FIRST JOB EVER. :D Whoooohooo. HAHA. The people there are crazy awesome and friendly :) So basically I met, Lutfi, Benyamin, Hyekel, Eugenius, Ben Huang, Benjamin, Leonard Tok, Serene, Charmaine, Gaz, Tas, Uncle Quek, Yamin, Yamini, Jermyn, Kymberly, Wei Ting, Uncle Gary, Yazhid, Randon, Andrew, Jon Chan, Lester, Cheng Yi, Chan, Chong, Gerome, Favian, Hao Sheng, Julian, Aidi, Zylyna, Sean Lee Jr., Darren, Wei Cheng, Gerald, Aaron, Kai, OMG SO SO MANY AWESOME PEOPLE :') I'm so lucky to have met them hee. This is the most awesome bunch of people you'll ever meet :'). They've really became family to me :) gonna miss them so so so much when school starts :( but I'll definitely wanna work whenever I can! :) Hee. And yeah basically over the holidays I've been going crazy, rushing here and there, getting my navel piercing and eating :D OH GOSHHH I HATE THE FACT I CAN'T EAT NOW :'( WEHHH. I WANT MY FOOD, I WANNA GO FOR BUFFET, I WANNA EATTTT. Oh gosh, this is like memoirs of a fat girl. HAHA. But seriously, I WANNA EAT :'(, sigh, with my next semi's crazy schedule I hope I do get time to eat at all :(. ANYWAYS, HAHA I tried to go shopping during the holidays with Puffy, but I guess I lost my shopping stamina and after knowing how hard it is to earn my own money WALAO, I REFUSE TO SPEND A CENT ON USELESS STUFF CAN. HAHA. So, during the holidays I actually got my wisdom teeth pulled out! Moving on to the next point now...

2. Why I'm a swollen pig, well being the idiot I was I thought it would been super convenient to pull out all 4 of my wisdom teeth since the holidays and everything, but HELL WAS I WRONG. OMG its super sad can, spending my last week of my holidays eating super soft food coz of the stitches :'( I'm sadd, to make things worse MY FACE IS LIKE TWICE IT'S USUAL SIZE thanks to my stupid decision to remove all 4 at once :'( I hate my face. WEHH, PUFFY'S COMING HOME FROM THAILAND TOMRROW, MY FACE NEEDS TO MAGICALLY SHRINK OR SOMETHING. I've been waking up from the aching of my chipmunk cheeks :(. Ouch, really DO NOT PULL OUT ALL 4 OF YOUR WISDOM TEETH AT ONCE, IT'S A BLOODY STUPID DECISION. OMG. WHY DID I DO THIS IS MYSELF. HAHA, But on the happier note :) my daddy is really proud of me for being so brave and decide all by myself to pull out all 4 of them :') AWWW. Warmed my heart :) hehe.. GUYS PLEASE PRAY FOR THE SWELLING TO GO DOWN :'( IT'S REAL BAD. HAHA

3. How I'm hoping to spend the rest of my holidays, I WANNA GO EAT AT LEAST ONE BUFFET :'( I REALLY DO. Then mope about how I've got school from 9 to 6 on tues and weds. SHIT. I've got to wake up at 5 plus on mondays since school starts at 8 am and on thurs and fri I'll be going to school for 3 and 2 hours respectively. NOT COOL MAN. WHAT KINDA TIMETABLE IS THIS. SO SO SO SO SO NOT COOL. Well, at least I've got Denise in my class :') WHEEEEE. HAHAH. SO HAPPY I GOT HER. But at the same time really upset we had to change classes :'( I'm gonna miss Gracine, Gabby and everyone else :'( WEHHHH. Okay, so the last week of holidays I'm gonna go eat a buffet and get my pig face to be my normal face. SIGH. I REALLY MISS MY NORMAL FACE. THIS IS SOOO UGLY. OMG. CAN DIE. Anyhoo, hope y'all have been great :) will have more time to update this blog once school reopens to whine about how my life sucks :'( HAHA. 

xoxo
Sammy Valentina ♥

Saturday, September 22, 2012

UPDATE ON MY HOLIDAYSSSS :D/ TCP CAMPPP

SO, I had a list of things I wanted to do during this holiday :D and I am happy to say most of those things are DONEEE. :D muahahahah. So yup, I am working now :D I have a navel piercing, I've finished all the SAW movies and both The Ring and The ring 2, Did my nails :), Saved and shopped, Swam ONCE :) (ITS SO HARD TO CONTINUOUSLY EXERCISE) and yeahhh. My holidays have been pretty good so far I guess :) despite the fact I've been REALLY BUSY :( Haven't had the time to really hang out with anyone coz I wanna keep working and on the days I'm not working I kinda have to spend time with my mum. Ah wells :(.

So yeah, I've started working at Sentosaaa :D awesome place, awesome people :) I would love to get out in the sun more and maybe even swim in the sea. But everyone there is so fit and good-looking I feel like shit in my swim wear, I don't wanna be saved by a fellow co-worker if I drown and I am afraid of the sea ._. So yup, I stay in the office near the beach :) CLOSE ENOUGH. HAHA. Everyone there is really nice :), like they're so friendly and funny. Made quite a few close friends there :). Still don't think I'm ready to find a new best friend :/. Ah wells, QUE SERA SERA. HAHA. 

Just got home from a camp actually :) TCP CAMP! :) It was freaking awesome. To be honest, I had half the mind to NOT GO for camp on Sunday and I was all ready to pay them the $500 just so I can stay at home with my bed and my Puffy :( I was really depressed the night before camp. Thinking about how I'm gonna be bored to death, how I won't be able to have a comfortable shower or toilet for the next 3 days, how I won't be having my bed, how I'm gonna be missing out on work stuff etc. It was quite bad. Haha, I was just whining about how it was gonna be a waste of my time and how I really have NO idea what I can benefit from this camp that is different from all the other leadership camps I've been to. So yup, with a heavy heart I left for camp on the monday morning. HAHA, Puffy stayed over the night before and walked me to the bus stop. I was kinda emo on the bus with my big heavy bag (I PACKED SO MANY T-SHIRTS. HAHAH) and I WAS LATE T_T. NOT COOL MAN. The bus driver took such a long long longggg time to get to Ngee Ann. Definitely off to a bad start, but luckily I noticed that there was a girl on the bus who also had camping stuff with her. HAHA, LATE TOGETHER :D -does a weird little Sammy dance-. Turns out we were in the same group together. SO FATED. HAHA, her name is Joxanne :) She is SUPER adorable, even my group mentor was calling her Cute Stuff. Oh, and it was kinda an awkward entrance coz WeiCheng (guy from work) was also at the same camp, the moment I entered he shouted my name REALLY LOUDLY. It was a totally OH GOD WHY moment. But yeah, I don't think anyone really noticed, so YAY :D. I went over to my group and this really pretty and cute girl with HUGE eyes was asking for my name and introduced herself as my group mentor. :) Her name is Eunice, really awesome awesome person. I was like really awkward there coz I didn't really have anyone to talk to so I just smiled and minded my own business for awhile before HuiYing and Emelia started talking to me and Tricia shouted across the group for my name. HAHA. SO SO AWKWARD. Thank God for the introduction session. HAHA, managed to catch everyone's names then :D whoot whooot. And that was the time whereby I started showing off my navel piercing. I AM A PROUD OWNER OK. HAHA. I would write about how the camp was like and its contents but I really don't wanna spoil it for anyone. It really is a camp worth going for and definitely a GET FAT CAMP if you don't control yourself. HAHA. :)

The mentors at camp were really inspiring, fun and so ever ready to serve it really touched me. It's kinda a weird thing to hear on the first day of camp when someone says "We are really here to serve you and we are all so excited to have every single one of you here with us" I don't know about how the others felt but I was really blown away when Leslie (ANOTHER AWESOME AND PRETTY MENTOR) said that. I was really touched and really impressed due to the fact it kinda made me feel really loved for someone to say that and it really made me think about my own leadership experience in YC this year. I was just really wow-ed by her statement. They really were ready to serve and ever so eager to get to know every single one of us, they can just come up to us randomly and talk to us and it was a really great experience. Oh gosh I'm tearing now. HAHA. Issues. I really really miss camp. Sigh. 

But yeah, I was so touched by everyone who made this camp happen and secretly proud to know that so many of the mentors are Chrtistians/Catholics, it really did prompt me to reflect on my own spiritual life and on how I could be like them changing someone's life. The camp also gave me a whole reality check on judging people. I SO SO WANNA TALK ABOUT THEIR SESSIONS BUT I DONT WANNA RUIN IT FOR ANYONE. GAHHH. But I really do miss everyone from camp, my team mates: Joxanne, Tricia, Dhaniah, Hui Qin, Shi Ying, Hui Ying, Gina, Shafiqah, Emelia, my awesome mentor Eunice :(, the ROHEI staff, the mentors. Sigh. :( 

I was really surprised with myself when I wasn't really all that emotional and upset on the last day of camp, at first I was really shocked and horrified at the fact I might have just treated this like another camp and not really bothered too much about it. The thought of this made me wanna cry a little just thinking about how maybe I really am not open and positive to things that were taught to me. It took me awhile to realise this but the reason why I'm not upset that camp ended is because I know the goodbyes said at camp aren't meant to be forever. It makes me happy to know that the friends made at this camp are the ones I will definitely be seeing again due to the fact we went through this life changing experience together :) really mad mad love for TCP camp. 

xoxo, 
Sammy Valentina 

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

SCHOOOOL'S OUTTT :D THINGS TO DO FOR MY HOLIDAYS

HELLO GOOD PEOPLE. I HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED MY FIRST EVER POLY SEM! WHOOOOHOOOOOO! :) My last paper was today :D which went a lot better than expected. Hee. 

So things to do this holiday:
1) HANG OUT WITH PEOPLE I LOVE AND MISS! IMPORTANT*
2) Get a job, this is in the process :D like I might be working at Sentosa! EXCITING. Will give more details if I get the job :)
3) USE THE MONEY FROM THE JOB TO SAVE AND SHOP. 2 words that never go together, but I'll find ways to make it work ;)
4) SWIM. SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM. JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP SWIMMING SWIMMING SWIMMING~
5) Maybe run o.o ... HAHA, who am I kidding :/ JUST GONNA STICK TO SWIMMING
6) NAVEL PIERCING!!! This is not happening soon :( Meh, I REALLY WANT IT. But yeah, lots of things making me reconsider, like how my mum will kill me and I'll get my dad into trouble :(. Sad Sammy is Sad. Ah wells THIS IS NOT CONFIRMED. UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE. 
7) DO MY NAILS. HAHHA, I was so stressed from studying medsoc I started peeling my nail polish :( poor nail polish lying all over the classroom floor.
8) CLEAN MY ROOM. The time to find all the hidden treasure. HAHAH. My room gets really messy whenever there's a school term
9) NO MORE POTATO CHIPS. I FREAKING ATE ONE PACKET OF CALBEE SEAWEED POTATO CHIPS AND ONE WHOLE CAN OF PRINGLES WHICH WAS PIZZA FLAVOURED WHILE STUDYING FOR MEDSOC AND LOCPRO. OH THE HORROR. AND AND ROLLER COASTERS WHILE I WAS AT AMARA RESORT ON SATURDAY. Oh I can die. HAHAH. SO YEAH. NO MORE POTATO CHIPS. EVEN AFTER SCHOOL STARTS. 
10) SAW MARATHON! ;D HAHHA, I HAVE NEVER REALLY WATCHED A SINGLE SAW MOVIE :( OH OH! and THE RING :D I like horror shows. Bite me. HAHA.
11) LOOK AFTER MY SOON TO ARRIVE BUNNEHHHH :D -TEARS OF JOY-
12) Rewatch ALL the Disney cartoons :D
13) SPEND LOTS OF TIME WITH MY BELOVED GOD-DAUGHTER GABBY
14) PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY. SEPND TIME WITH GOD IN THE ADORATION ROOM
15) DO EVERYTHING WITH LOVE AND POSITIVITY. DO ALL THESE THINGS IN THE MOST CHRIST-LIKE WAY POSSIBLE.

So yeah, lately I made a really rash comment on twitter and kinda got people into trouble and probably hurt a few people as well. Sigh, sometimes I really let my own spitefulness and anger get to me. Really need to stop. Last Sunday's Gospel reading really left an impact on me. I keep seeing how people haven't really been great friends to me, without noticing how I wasn't really a great friend myself. Lester's right. I need to stop being negative and start being positive. Hopefully I can fix things. Hate how I always do things without thinking. NEED TO STOP. So yeah, :) I AM GONNA MAKE THIS HOLIDAY A GOOD ONE :D WHOOHOOO. COME ON PEOPLE, GET YOUR SUNGLASSES, SHADES AND BIKINI ITS TIME TO HEAD TO THE BEACH! GOSH I WANT THE JOB AT SENTOSA SOOOOO BADDDDD! 

To all my friends who have their promos and poly exams coming up ALL THE BEST :D I'LL BE PRAYING FOR Y'ALL! :D GOD BLESS!

xoxo 
Sammy Valentina ♥

Thursday, August 2, 2012

SCHOOL HAS BEEN CRAZAYYE

Hey guys, haven't been blogging for awhile :( coz I have been really realllyy realllyyyyyyy busy with school :( WEHHH. No time for myself at all eh. :( or for my boyfriend for that matter. Ah wells, at least all the modules that I am somehow having a problem with are more or less over :). Hee. S&W ended up on monday :( really miss netball eh. I kinda fell in love with it for the past sem. But yeah, that is one module down :). Writcomm is also over, webgra is also over. AHHHHHHH. :( THIS WHOLE YEAR IS PASSING BY WAY WAYYYYY TOO FASTTTTT :( NOOOOOO. Haha, but yeah :) Hopefully I do well to make my daddy proud :D. Managed to actually paint my nails yesterday :D whoot whoot. Like FINALLY, after like 2 weeks. Oh, I got new spectacles too :D COACH. Hehe. They make me look "hot" according to my boyfriend <3 :D yayy. I AM HOT, HAHAH. Gosh I am so tired. Been really stressed out the past 2 weeks :( I can't even sleep well at night stressing over all the work I have to do. It is a recurring fight between my body and my mind. My mind won't stop thinking and like my body won't function well. Haven't really been eating much at nights either. It is funny how nights REALLY REALLY STRESS ME OUT. Because it shows how the day is ending and I've just lost more time. Sigh. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I AM SO STRESSED OUT. THIS IS NOT NORMAL. I'M BECOMING A VINOD. NOT FUNNY. Okay. I need to chill. HAHAH. Can't wait for sem break :) 2 more weeks. I will really miss my class though :( They have been really awesome. Some people stereotype the FMS kids saying they are mean and bitchy but my classmates are really really nice. Everyone is nice once you get to know them I guess. HAHA. I still judge though. My judging skills are pretty spot on. :) I will really misss my classmates during sem break :'(. I think we are actually quite bonded and that just warms my heart. Seeing people console each other and spur each other on :'). 


I have decided that during sem break I will get something new or do something new :D I am gonna get my navel piercing this sem break. DO OR DIE. MUST GET IT. I just wanna know how it feels like. HAHA. Not like I'm really gonna go around and show people since y'know my tummy is really bigg :( boo. But yeah. Just for the experience :D if it turns out alright I might keep it for the long term but for now I am planning to keep it till it heals and just take it out. HAHA. I have issues. I like doing things for the fun of it. Its nice to know the different levels of pain I guess. ISSUES. 


HAHA. I did something really retarded. HAHA I called my awesome friend Gabby to ask her about digpho and like she asked me to check my email and I started looking around for my phone, only to realise my phone was on my hand coz I used it to call her ._. OOPSIE. HAHA GTG! THE 9 OCLOCK SHOW IS STARTING :D BYEEEE 


xoxo Sammy Valentina 

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

So many things have changed.

So sick and tired of the many things changing in my life. The many people who used to be a big part of a life who are just not there anymore. Maybe the problem lies with me. How I am sick of people's bullshit. Or maybe I am just tired of constantly being taken for granted. It is really tiring. To have to deal with people who can carry on with their lives, pretend everything is okay and still push the blame to you for the fall of the friendship. Well done. I guess maybe I am too sensitive. In a sense that I actually get really hurt whenever I find out I'm lied to. I get really upset when I find out that despite being thee for people, when things get better they're gone. Like, it just makes me feel so used. I used to be able to take it. Just be content with being able to help them when they needed me. But I am just so sick and tired of doing so. Them constantly hurting me, being so self-involved just broke me. They broke the compassionate side of me I guess. I can't completely blame them. I wasn't strong enough, I wasn't caring enough and I wasn't good enough. Maybe I demanded a little too much for them to care about me a little. Like, really find out how I am doing. Not come to me and say 'Hey how are you?' and then carry on about themselves. If it is about real family problems I can understand. I will never get upset about someone complaining to me about the shit they deal with at home. Because I know how that feels like, to be hurt by your own family is just wrong. I never really got the full privilege of familial love, thank God for my dad. But if you're just gonna talk to me whine about how you are not getting the person you have a crush on, how you are upset about having to fulfill your responsibilities and just being obsessed about problems that you refuse to let go, please know I am not the person to turn to. I just cannot handle it or be nice to you because I feel that you just want attention, not real concern. I will not be the kind of superficial person who will pretend to care when I really don't. What's the point? I'm sorry I just like to keep it real. I know I may seem like a mega mean bitch right now. Maybe I am. I guess I am just tired of being people's second choice. Like being a substitute when the friends they want are never around. I'm not asking for people to like really worship me and like see me as a huge awesome person just because I was there for them.I just ask to be appreciated. It would be nice if people actually came to me and just be there. Not asking for anything, just a friend in return. That would be lovely. Maybe things seem to have changed because I changed. Maybe it is really my fault for not trying hard enough. I just don't feel good enough to be there for anyone. I'm sorry if I have hurt you in anyway by ignoring you. I just don't feel good enough to be there for anyone, I'm emotionally unstable, apparently I am not spiritually ready either and I have just been hurt too many times by people who I really cared for. I am scared to care actually, maybe even scared to love. Maybe things haven't changed, I changed. Not like anyone is gonna read this anyway. But if you feel the same way, here's to let you know you're not alone.

xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥

Monday, July 23, 2012

BOREDDDD

HELLOOOOOOO :)
Havent blogged for awhile! How y"all doing :D hahah. School has been really crazy :( Tired Sammy is tireddd. :( Haven't been sleeping well the past 2 weeks :( wehhhh. So much pressure to perform better. My tolerance level has been really reallyyyy lowww. Sigh. So yeahhh. Last IJ lesson today :)! Next week is gonna be my last S&W lessonnnn~ Then the assignment deadlines and exams will come and drown me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO  :'( Ah wells. I'm tired. Gonna like wait for them to finish up. I swear I haven't been slacking. I actually did a lot today. I just have a really bad headache right now :( okayyy~ BYEEEE


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥ 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D

OHMYGOSH. HAHAHAHHA I ALMOST SPELT HAPPY AS HABBY. HAHAHAHAH RETARDEDDD. Anyways, IT'S MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY :D hehe I bought him a bottle of red wine. HAHA. Adriel took a cab down to meet me, because I am underaged so he has to buy the red wine for me. HAHA. BUT I PAID OKAY. HAHA. So yeah, after that daddy came to fetch us, we tried really hard to hide the cake, but apparently he saw it when he was fetching us. SHITTTTT. HAHAH, :) but yeah, it was fun. My dad was being bitchy ruining the whole birthday fun. When I switched off the fan he was like, 'Eh why don't on the fan, weather not hot meh?' HAHAHAH. After that we had the cake cutting ceremony :D. HAHA. I almost spelt cake as cat. I love my daddy :) hee. He has always been there for me, supporting me, and just loving me in his own silent way. He may not be the really talkative kind, but he is the really dependable and loving kind :). I love him a lot. He is my motivation to really do well in my studies coz I wanna be able to look after him when he grows older like how he looked after me. Okay, I'm getting really emotional. CHANGE TOPICCCC.


I got back my writcomm test results today :D. I was really dreading the return of this paper coz it was really out-of-the-world kinda hard :(. WEH. But yeah :) I did a lot better than I expected to do. I expected to fail. Really badly. HAHA. But I didn't :D I got 32/40! WHOOOOOTS. WHOOOOOOHOOOOOOO. SO HAPPYYYYYYY. HAHA. I am really not a mugger btw. HAHA, I am just a very lucky girl with a pretty good memory :) so yup, I AM NOT A MUGGER. 


Today was like a roller coaster, day started off kinda bad but went up,up  AND AWAYYYYY~. Roller coaster is the wrong kind of metaphor to use isn't it ._. ... It was like a hot air ballooooon.... Not really.... AH YOU GET MY DRIFT. HAHA. Oh Adriel managed to score pretty good boyfriend points today with my daddy :) coz he paid for the cake and all. HAHA. :) YAY. Okay, I'm gonna go now. 




xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S THATS ADRIELLLL :D HEHEHE. the girl behind is my cousin. HAHAHA. She's enjoying life seating on the massage seat and eating crackers. HAHAH. BYE.

ONE HOUR TO SPARE :D

Hi guys, I'm back. HAHAH. I AM REALLY BOREDDDD. I swear I'm just gonna keep spamming this blog in my free time, because I have that many things to talk about and I have so many things in my BIG BIG BRAIN :D HEHE Medsoc is fun :) I am really gonna miss medsoc next sem :( Im gonna miss Miss Tess loads. She's so niceeee :D <3 hahaha! And she looks like a teenager I swear, like the first time she walked into class I thought she was one of our classmates. HAHAH. Stupid. So, yeah we learnt about newspapers today, it's really not as boring as it sounds. HAHAH. :) Like we learnt about how newspapers is gonna be extinct soon and like it's gonna be a closed business soon :( that sucks. Not like I read newspapers but it's just sad that another one of our traditional stuff are gonna be goneeee :(. Sigh, first the dinosaurs, then the big cool telephones, the big televisions, the cheap food and now NEWSPAPERS ARE GONNA BE GONE. WHATTHEHELL. :( Really upset about it. Meh, hate that things are just VANISHING. FADING AWAY INTO THIN AIR :(. Boo.


Oh, the girl behind me kept kicking my chair -.- whatthehell and it's like she doesn't even apologize. So mean :(. I get really upset when people walk into lecture late then like not pay attention at all. Like firstly you're disrupting the lecture, and secondly its not like if you come in late your attendance will get marked, if you're not interested just don't come at all. Go do something you enjoy doing rather than come disrupt someone's lesson. Pfft. Ass. Last week, this group of people came in late and like kept making so much noise during lesson. ROARRRRRR. Okay, enough ranting. HAHA. :) I swear Deedee makes lectures quite fun :) Poor girl is sick :( Like, she has a sore throat. There is a flu going around I swear. I don;t feel really well either and like Adriel is sick too :( Janine and Siti are sick too. Gosh, EVERYONE'S FALLING SICK. THE WORLD IS ENDING. IT'S A SIGN. HAHA. I have issues. Oh gosh I am really tired. Still have writcomm lecture coming up. No idea what we're gonna do today. HAHA. Ahh wells :) Gonna go now. Denise says I have blogger syndrome. I agree with her. Every moment I just wanna BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG. HAHA :) Well at least I know at least one person reads it :) Hee, I love him like crazy <3.


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S HAHAHAH GRACINE AND MIMI ARE SINGING KOREAN SONGS. HAHHAHA WHAAAAT. Oh, thats Deedee on the right :D <3

I love school :)

Haha! HELLO GUYSSSS :D random post before Medsoc lecture :). Yeahhhh, I'm gonna faille my webgra test :(, gosh, it was so so sooooo baddddd :(. Like 2 hours 15 mins to do both photoshop and dreamweaver was crazy :( boo. Ah wells, at least it is over now :) Haha, went for lunch with Denise, Gracine and Gabrielle :) <3 we went to the Ngee Ann Alumni Clubhouse and I had time to go buy a new notebook :D, really took lots of notes this year. HAHAH :). I love them I swear, they are freaking awesome and retarded at the same time :D <3. Ashraf joined us after awhile. :) Gabby treated us all to drinks and it was awesome :D. I LOVE HONEY LEMONNNNN. HAHAH. Oh, one point we actually started talking about how we can have a whole potluck session :) HAHA, Gabby was like "I can make sushi!" and I was like "I can make potato chips, but yeah, don't be surprised if they taste like Lays coz I am THAT GOOD" HAHAHAH. Then after that we hanged around for awhile and left. HAHA, the girls went to the toilet to like camwhore for awhile :), Gracine and Denise were damn epic, like both of them were like looking at the phone while Gabby and I were like looking in the mirror, BECAUSE THATS THE RIGHT WAY TO CAMWHORE. HAHAH. Oh, they were really funny during lunch too, haha apparently they mistook each other's order and ended up taking the other's order until they realized which one was fish. HAHA. I love them. I swear. HAHA. 


Oh, they were talking about Wicked, really upset I didn't get to catch the musical when it was in Singapore, but apparently they changed the musical. Ah wells, hahah there's a book, I SHALL READ THE BOOK :D... I will TRY TO READ THE BOOK. hahahh! :) Okay, I think I'm gonna go off now, since genius me didn't bring my laptop charger and I have 2 lectures coming up back-to-back. HAHA :) BYEEEEEE 


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S the one on the extreme right is Gracine and the one beside me is Denise :D 
Gracine suggested we act like bimbos since this is NOT A BIMBO's blog. HAHAHHAHA OKAY. BYE

I can't do Yoga anymore :(

Haha, hey guys, today I had a very sad epiphany :(, I can't do Yoga anymore :'( wehhhhhh. Haha, I was trying to do it in Adriel's house today, his mum was really impressed :D so yeah, NOT THAT BAD. HAHAH. Yeah, after IJ I didn't really do much, rushed to Adriel's to put down my bag and went to the polyclinic to look for him. Waited for him to see the doctor before I left to buy lunch for him :). Haha, I looked damn auntie carrying all the different kinda food to and fro. HAHA. But yeah :) we spent most of the day sleeping coz his medicine caused drowsiness and I slept for like 5 hours last night. :) 


Went with his brother and mother to Ikea around 9 plus, HAHA, I love Ikea :) <3 what an awesome place with COOL BEDS! Oh, I kinda forgot about my webgra test tomorrow. I am soooo screwed. Haha, I did make notes for tomorrow! Just that I don't know what kinda notes to make anymore D; since I already made notes for everything and like, it's kinda pointless re-writing everything now is it? :( so yeah, I didn't really do much for tomorrow's test, just tried out what he taught us on friday :). Just realized that it's not very fair that we have our test tomorrow since our lesson was pushed to friday and like, THERE ARE ONLY 3 DAYS BETWEEN FRIDAY AND TUESDAY. OHMYGOSH. NOT FUNNY. So yeah, I am kinda freaking out, but not completely freaking out. I am more or less freaking out over the fact I am not freaking out and there's nothing to freak out over. OHMYGOSH THIS BLOGPOST IS MAKING ME FREAK OUT. I HAVE A TEST TOMORROW AND I'M TOO DAMN CALM. MOST PROBABLY DIE TOMORROW. JUST HYPERVENTILATE IN THE MORNING AND DIE. Oh yeah I lost my earphones :( really upset about that. WEHHHHH :'( I NEED NEW EARPHONES. I need music :( boo. Okay, back to Ikea, they now have a freaking cool way to dispense their ice-cream! :D haha, they have a machine and like you pay at the counter, they give you some magical token, you put your cone on the holder, put your token in, press the dispensing button once and YOU HAVE ICE CREAM :D AWESOMEEE. 


It's late, I'm tired, I'm happy, I'm kinda freaked out, so yeah, the inner-non-existant-bimbo in me might me emerging. I need to sleeeeep. Haha, good night world :) 


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S HAHAHAH, I LOVE YAKULT, IT'S AWESOME. I THINK I AM HIGH. I LOVE ALL OF YOU :D BE SURE TO COME FOR MY FUNERAL WHEN I HYPERVENTILATE AND DIE TOMORROW. HAHAHAHA. I HAVE ISSUES. I AM NORMAL. I SWEAR. HAHA BYE! :)

Monday, July 9, 2012

Random post in class!



Haha, hi guysss! I'm in IJ now and I'm writing a blog post! :D Watch out we got a bad ass over here! Haha! Yeah the one on the right is grace :) She's awesome! Even though she skipped S&W today and left me alone to fend for myself :'(. But yeah, S&W was really fun :) Even though we had to really run a lot today :(. Haha, defenders are really the runners during the game, its so hard to look behind you :'(. I am like really tired. But still! :) thanks to my awesome S&W classmates it was really fun! :) Haha, because Grace left me alone for S&W I was all alone waiting for IJ to start :(, for those who don't know IJ stands for Idea Jumpstart, it's like a module in Ngee Ann that encourages us to be creative, haha. It's not really that bad :) but yeah, I would prefer to not come for it since I'm all tired and sweaty from netball :(. Haha. :) So, while waiting for IJ to start I headed to the Ngee Ann library which is FREAKING BIG btw. I kinda got lost in there and I was trying to choose books that were reliable, so yeah, I spent more time in there than I expected to spend, and ended up being late instead of early for IJ ;x ooopsie. Haha, with Grace now :) we're like the only ones doing work in our group -.-. Pfft. It's okay! :D we are both awesome people who can HANDLE IT! Yeah! GIRL POWERRRR! Okay, I'm slightly high HAHA. 


Gonna head over to Puffy's coz he is sick :( wehhhh. Shall buy porridge, bean curd and juice for him :) <3 her. I'll post another post tonight if I can! :D OH GOSH, DREAMWEAVER TEST TOMORROW. NOT FUNNYYYY. DIE DIE DIE DIE.


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S Haha, I masked my face last night and freaked out when I saw my reflection on my laptop screen thinking it was a ghost. HAHAHAHAH FREAKING LOSER! Haha, byeeee! :)

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Today wasn't that bad!

Hello world! :) didn't really do much today eh, haha, went for mass to spend some time with my Father. :) I love spending time with Him. But yeahhh, I was slightly late ;x ooopsie. Haha, bus took forever to come eh :( so not exactly my fault there :). HAHA. I need to go for confession soon. Really want to make it habit to go regularly for confession but its like SO AWKWARD. Like where do you go and like how do you just go into the confession booth without like colliding with anyone or like indirectly cutting their queue :( HOW HOW! So many things to think about before going for confession :'(. Ah wells, hopefully I can go next week :). 


Went out for lunch with Michael, Lionel, Eugene and David after mass :). HAHA. We went to Jian Dao Jian~ :) I haven't been there for a really long time but apparently they go there every week after mass for lunch... I guess I can't blame people for excluding me so much since I haven't really been around ever since I got attached, school started and since I wasn't really motivated to go to church the past few weeks... Haha, Wanwan was right, I should really start putting in more effort including myself then blaming others for excluding me :). HAHA, but lunch was really fun, it wasn't awkward at all, haha, really far from what I expected :). The guys were really nice and funny. HAHA. There was one awkward moment when Pignel kinda got hit on by one of the aunties. She just started telling him that he was really handsome when all he wanted was more curry. SO AWKWARD. HAHA. :) But yeah, overall it was a nice time with the guys.


Oh oh! I saw Chris Oh and Ben Pra today during mass :), didn't really get to talk to Chris Oh coz he left after communion due to personal reasons... Hmmm. Haha, Ben Pra hanged around for awhile after mass for hugs and stuff but vanished soon after. They were both being bitchy on twitter demanding I pay each of them $50 for letting me see them today -.- Whaaaaat. HAHAH. Still love them uh :)


After lunch I went to see my mummy, but I had to buy like 10 wobblys for her. Like she wanted 10! So yeah, I looked like a retard on the bus. HAHA. I missed both different buses to her place -.- whatthehell. The weather was crazy hot so I was melting :'(. Haha. When I finally reached her place she was SLEEPING -.- so yeah, I just watched TV :(. Watched Transformers 3 :). Have a huge mega crush on Optimus Prime!! :D Heehee. I was really upset when I thought the Autobots died :'( and when the deceptions were gonna kill Bumble Bee :'(. But yeah, it was still an awesome show :) hee. 


Then after that I came back home and went for dinner with my daddy! :) To celebrate his birthday! :) It's this coming tuesday :D hehe. We went to JPpepperdine at Bras Basar :) Hee, I feel fat though :'( Wehehehehhe. Need to stop eating so much. I swear I'm like forever hungry, blooody braces make me wanna eat more food. HAHA. I had black pepper steak :D daddy had some fish and lobster thingy, which wasn't very good according to him. HAHA, but yeah :) we all had a good time just catching up and like talking about random stuff :D. Hee. After that we went to raffles city so he could buy bread for tomorrow's breakfast and for me to go buy starbucks :) my brother was whining the whole way about how we were walking over to Raffles City for Starbucks... Pfft. Pig. HAHA. :) Then we headed to Crumpler, I got kicked out coz of my Starbucks :'( weheheheheheh. So embarrassing! I really liked one of the bags though :( But I was standing outside so I couldn't like tell my dad I liked it. My brother was being an ass not wanting to help me tell my daddy. :( I looked damn dodgy standing outside Crumpler trying to get my brother to tell my daddy about the bag. Eventually I just called my brother to ask him to tell my dad about the bag and then the best thing in the world happened... MY DADDY READILY AGREED TO BUY THE BAG FOR ME :D HEHEHEHEH! SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! :) I got a new crumplier backpack that is BLUE :D HAPPY SAMMY IS HAPPY! So yeah, after that we headed home :) I swear the shops at Raffles City close really early :( we reached there around 8.45 and all the watch shops were closed so daddy couldn't see the watches :(. Ah wells, today wasn't that bad :) hee.


I didn't get to see my Puffy today though :( <3 he went fishing with his dad and brother, apparently they only caught one fish the whole day and that fish was caught by him HAHHA :). I miss my Puffy :(. Haha, we're both not feeling well :( But I can't skip school tomorrow because of my stupid S&W :( But I love S&W. :D It's so much funnnnn! HAHAH! :) Yeah, I'm kinda tired, so I'm gonna go off now! :D BYEEEEE! HAHHA. 


P.S DID Y'ALL KNOW THAT TRAINS HAVE DRIVERS IN THEM?! LIKE WHAAATTHEHELL RIGHT?! I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST LIKE CONTROLLED BY THE STATIONS, LIKE THEY PRESS A BUTTON AND IT GOES TO THE NEXT STATION KINDA THING :D HAHAH. 


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥

Saturday, July 7, 2012

NEW BLOG!

HAHA, haven't been blogging for awhile and since I'm so bored and I've got nothing to do I've decided to create a WHOLE NEW BLOG! :D HAHAH! So many new things in my life right now. I've got really long hair, I've got braces, I started making video covers on my Facebook, I've got a new hamster from my bro Johnathan Fan, I'm the secretary of Risen Christ's Youth Council, I'm in Ngee ann Poly studying Mass communication, IMMA GODMA and well the biggest change is that I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. HAHHA. Like for real, a real boyfriend. HAHA. So yup, that pretty much sums up the huge changes in my life recently :)

Right now I'm watching Soloman Kane, alone. Totally freaking out. It's not pretty. HAHA. "The Dark Knight Rises" advertisement is on now... I haven't watched a single Batman movie, from as long as I remember. HAHA, I kinda wanna mask my face, but I'm sooooo lazyyyy. Spent time with my mum today, not the best use of time... Haha, well at least we didn't fight that much today. -shrugs-. My stupid cat Blackjack bit me really hard just now :(. He is eating now. He's a pig I swear. A PIG IN CAT'S CLOTHING. He got a new collar recently, haha, it has a little bell on it so we know where he is :). 

School is pretty good so far. Had some problems with certain people, but somehow things often work out well. :) Doing quite okay on my grades :) except for digital photography... I do not work well with cameras :( at all. Ah wells, I'm doing my best, I guess that's all that kinda counts... HAHAH. Not really. I REALLY WANT A GOOD GPA :( WEHHHHHH. Oh gosh, the movie is damn scary. HAHA. "If I kill you, I'm going to hell. But that is a price I'll bloody pay" AWESOME SHITTT, the accent is really hot. :D hehe.

Getting spammed on twitter thanks to Aloy spelling Taohuay as TaoHUI. HAHA, really funnyyyy. My damn cat is trying to run out again :'(. Assss.

I miss so many people in my life. Haven't really had much time for anyone except my boyfriend. Like I've got so many things to do, so many people to meet, so much shit to deal with at home, I don't wanna lose myself at all. I'm so scared sometimes. Like I feel that I'm losing people who are really dear to me. I feel pushed away by people who I care about. I'm so sick and tired of trying to be there for people who exaggerate their problems when so many other people have bigger problems. My tolerance level has been pretty low, I guess I just had enough of people whining over the same damn thing over and over again. Like seriously, get over it. How about learning from it instead of dwelling on it? How the hell does dwelling help you in any damn way? I just don't get. And because I've lost patience for these kinda people I become the bad person, I become the excluded one, I'm the one who apparently push them away. Been feeling rather alone in the friends department of my life. Like no one really has time for me anymore. But thank God for people like Lester, Parry, Michael and Twinneh. People who constantly never fail to make me feel special, important, needed and loved. People who showed me they really care when I was feeling really down in my life and I never stop thanking God for them. Of course not excluding Adriel who is always there for me, constantly motivating me and loving me. I guess in terms of friends, its not how many people you know, but by who is there for you when no one is. 

HAHA, this post is so messy. so random then suddenly so emotional. It's my first post. I'll be back :) OH FUDGEEEE A BLOODY BEETLE JUST CAME FLYING TOWARDS ME. I ALMOST DIED. TIME TO GO!

xoxo Sammy Valentina