UPDATE ON MY HOLIDAYSSSS :D/ TCP CAMPPP

SO, I had a list of things I wanted to do during this holiday :D and I am happy to say most of those things are DONEEE. :D muahahahah. So yup, I am working now :D I have a navel piercing, I've finished all the SAW movies and both The Ring and The ring 2, Did my nails :), Saved and shopped, Swam ONCE :) (ITS SO HARD TO CONTINUOUSLY EXERCISE) and yeahhh. My holidays have been pretty good so far I guess :) despite the fact I've been REALLY BUSY :( Haven't had the time to really hang out with anyone coz I wanna keep working and on the days I'm not working I kinda have to spend time with my mum. Ah wells :(.

So yeah, I've started working at Sentosaaa :D awesome place, awesome people :) I would love to get out in the sun more and maybe even swim in the sea. But everyone there is so fit and good-looking I feel like shit in my swim wear, I don't wanna be saved by a fellow co-worker if I drown and I am afraid of the sea ._. So yup, I stay in the office near the beach :) CLOSE ENOUGH. HAHA. Everyone there is really nice :), like they're so friendly and funny. Made quite a few close friends there :). Still don't think I'm ready to find a new best friend :/. Ah wells, QUE SERA SERA. HAHA. 

Just got home from a camp actually :) TCP CAMP! :) It was freaking awesome. To be honest, I had half the mind to NOT GO for camp on Sunday and I was all ready to pay them the $500 just so I can stay at home with my bed and my Puffy :( I was really depressed the night before camp. Thinking about how I'm gonna be bored to death, how I won't be able to have a comfortable shower or toilet for the next 3 days, how I won't be having my bed, how I'm gonna be missing out on work stuff etc. It was quite bad. Haha, I was just whining about how it was gonna be a waste of my time and how I really have NO idea what I can benefit from this camp that is different from all the other leadership camps I've been to. So yup, with a heavy heart I left for camp on the monday morning. HAHA, Puffy stayed over the night before and walked me to the bus stop. I was kinda emo on the bus with my big heavy bag (I PACKED SO MANY T-SHIRTS. HAHAH) and I WAS LATE T_T. NOT COOL MAN. The bus driver took such a long long longggg time to get to Ngee Ann. Definitely off to a bad start, but luckily I noticed that there was a girl on the bus who also had camping stuff with her. HAHA, LATE TOGETHER :D -does a weird little Sammy dance-. Turns out we were in the same group together. SO FATED. HAHA, her name is Joxanne :) She is SUPER adorable, even my group mentor was calling her Cute Stuff. Oh, and it was kinda an awkward entrance coz WeiCheng (guy from work) was also at the same camp, the moment I entered he shouted my name REALLY LOUDLY. It was a totally OH GOD WHY moment. But yeah, I don't think anyone really noticed, so YAY :D. I went over to my group and this really pretty and cute girl with HUGE eyes was asking for my name and introduced herself as my group mentor. :) Her name is Eunice, really awesome awesome person. I was like really awkward there coz I didn't really have anyone to talk to so I just smiled and minded my own business for awhile before HuiYing and Emelia started talking to me and Tricia shouted across the group for my name. HAHA. SO SO AWKWARD. Thank God for the introduction session. HAHA, managed to catch everyone's names then :D whoot whooot. And that was the time whereby I started showing off my navel piercing. I AM A PROUD OWNER OK. HAHA. I would write about how the camp was like and its contents but I really don't wanna spoil it for anyone. It really is a camp worth going for and definitely a GET FAT CAMP if you don't control yourself. HAHA. :)

The mentors at camp were really inspiring, fun and so ever ready to serve it really touched me. It's kinda a weird thing to hear on the first day of camp when someone says "We are really here to serve you and we are all so excited to have every single one of you here with us" I don't know about how the others felt but I was really blown away when Leslie (ANOTHER AWESOME AND PRETTY MENTOR) said that. I was really touched and really impressed due to the fact it kinda made me feel really loved for someone to say that and it really made me think about my own leadership experience in YC this year. I was just really wow-ed by her statement. They really were ready to serve and ever so eager to get to know every single one of us, they can just come up to us randomly and talk to us and it was a really great experience. Oh gosh I'm tearing now. HAHA. Issues. I really really miss camp. Sigh. 

But yeah, I was so touched by everyone who made this camp happen and secretly proud to know that so many of the mentors are Chrtistians/Catholics, it really did prompt me to reflect on my own spiritual life and on how I could be like them changing someone's life. The camp also gave me a whole reality check on judging people. I SO SO WANNA TALK ABOUT THEIR SESSIONS BUT I DONT WANNA RUIN IT FOR ANYONE. GAHHH. But I really do miss everyone from camp, my team mates: Joxanne, Tricia, Dhaniah, Hui Qin, Shi Ying, Hui Ying, Gina, Shafiqah, Emelia, my awesome mentor Eunice :(, the ROHEI staff, the mentors. Sigh. :( 

I was really surprised with myself when I wasn't really all that emotional and upset on the last day of camp, at first I was really shocked and horrified at the fact I might have just treated this like another camp and not really bothered too much about it. The thought of this made me wanna cry a little just thinking about how maybe I really am not open and positive to things that were taught to me. It took me awhile to realise this but the reason why I'm not upset that camp ended is because I know the goodbyes said at camp aren't meant to be forever. It makes me happy to know that the friends made at this camp are the ones I will definitely be seeing again due to the fact we went through this life changing experience together :) really mad mad love for TCP camp. 

xoxo, 

Sammy Valentina ♥

SCHOOOOL'S OUTTT :D THINGS TO DO FOR MY HOLIDAYS

HELLO GOOD PEOPLE. I HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED MY FIRST EVER POLY SEM! WHOOOOHOOOOOO! :) My last paper was today :D which went a lot better than expected. Hee. 

So things to do this holiday:
1) HANG OUT WITH PEOPLE I LOVE AND MISS! IMPORTANT*
2) Get a job, this is in the process :D like I might be working at Sentosa! EXCITING. Will give more details if I get the job :)
3) USE THE MONEY FROM THE JOB TO SAVE AND SHOP. 2 words that never go together, but I'll find ways to make it work ;)
4) SWIM. SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM. JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP SWIMMING JUST KEEP SWIMMING SWIMMING SWIMMING~
5) Maybe run o.o ... HAHA, who am I kidding :/ JUST GONNA STICK TO SWIMMING
6) NAVEL PIERCING!!! This is not happening soon :( Meh, I REALLY WANT IT. But yeah, lots of things making me reconsider, like how my mum will kill me and I'll get my dad into trouble :(. Sad Sammy is Sad. Ah wells THIS IS NOT CONFIRMED. UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE. 
7) DO MY NAILS. HAHHA, I was so stressed from studying medsoc I started peeling my nail polish :( poor nail polish lying all over the classroom floor.
8) CLEAN MY ROOM. The time to find all the hidden treasure. HAHAH. My room gets really messy whenever there's a school term
9) NO MORE POTATO CHIPS. I FREAKING ATE ONE PACKET OF CALBEE SEAWEED POTATO CHIPS AND ONE WHOLE CAN OF PRINGLES WHICH WAS PIZZA FLAVOURED WHILE STUDYING FOR MEDSOC AND LOCPRO. OH THE HORROR. AND AND ROLLER COASTERS WHILE I WAS AT AMARA RESORT ON SATURDAY. Oh I can die. HAHAH. SO YEAH. NO MORE POTATO CHIPS. EVEN AFTER SCHOOL STARTS. 
10) SAW MARATHON! ;D HAHHA, I HAVE NEVER REALLY WATCHED A SINGLE SAW MOVIE :( OH OH! and THE RING :D I like horror shows. Bite me. HAHA.
11) LOOK AFTER MY SOON TO ARRIVE BUNNEHHHH :D -TEARS OF JOY-
12) Rewatch ALL the Disney cartoons :D
13) SPEND LOTS OF TIME WITH MY BELOVED GOD-DAUGHTER GABBY
14) PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY. SEPND TIME WITH GOD IN THE ADORATION ROOM
15) DO EVERYTHING WITH LOVE AND POSITIVITY. DO ALL THESE THINGS IN THE MOST CHRIST-LIKE WAY POSSIBLE.

So yeah, lately I made a really rash comment on twitter and kinda got people into trouble and probably hurt a few people as well. Sigh, sometimes I really let my own spitefulness and anger get to me. Really need to stop. Last Sunday's Gospel reading really left an impact on me. I keep seeing how people haven't really been great friends to me, without noticing how I wasn't really a great friend myself. Lester's right. I need to stop being negative and start being positive. Hopefully I can fix things. Hate how I always do things without thinking. NEED TO STOP. So yeah, :) I AM GONNA MAKE THIS HOLIDAY A GOOD ONE :D WHOOHOOO. COME ON PEOPLE, GET YOUR SUNGLASSES, SHADES AND BIKINI ITS TIME TO HEAD TO THE BEACH! GOSH I WANT THE JOB AT SENTOSA SOOOOO BADDDDD! 

To all my friends who have their promos and poly exams coming up ALL THE BEST :D I'LL BE PRAYING FOR Y'ALL! :D GOD BLESS!

xoxo 
Sammy Valentina ♥

SCHOOL HAS BEEN CRAZAYYE

Hey guys, haven't been blogging for awhile :( coz I have been really realllyy realllyyyyyyy busy with school :( WEHHH. No time for myself at all eh. :( or for my boyfriend for that matter. Ah wells, at least all the modules that I am somehow having a problem with are more or less over :). Hee. S&W ended up on monday :( really miss netball eh. I kinda fell in love with it for the past sem. But yeah, that is one module down :). Writcomm is also over, webgra is also over. AHHHHHHH. :( THIS WHOLE YEAR IS PASSING BY WAY WAYYYYY TOO FASTTTTT :( NOOOOOO. Haha, but yeah :) Hopefully I do well to make my daddy proud :D. Managed to actually paint my nails yesterday :D whoot whoot. Like FINALLY, after like 2 weeks. Oh, I got new spectacles too :D COACH. Hehe. They make me look "hot" according to my boyfriend <3 :D yayy. I AM HOT, HAHAH. Gosh I am so tired. Been really stressed out the past 2 weeks :( I can't even sleep well at night stressing over all the work I have to do. It is a recurring fight between my body and my mind. My mind won't stop thinking and like my body won't function well. Haven't really been eating much at nights either. It is funny how nights REALLY REALLY STRESS ME OUT. Because it shows how the day is ending and I've just lost more time. Sigh. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY I AM SO STRESSED OUT. THIS IS NOT NORMAL. I'M BECOMING A VINOD. NOT FUNNY. Okay. I need to chill. HAHAH. Can't wait for sem break :) 2 more weeks. I will really miss my class though :( They have been really awesome. Some people stereotype the FMS kids saying they are mean and bitchy but my classmates are really really nice. Everyone is nice once you get to know them I guess. HAHA. I still judge though. My judging skills are pretty spot on. :) I will really misss my classmates during sem break :'(. I think we are actually quite bonded and that just warms my heart. Seeing people console each other and spur each other on :'). 


I have decided that during sem break I will get something new or do something new :D I am gonna get my navel piercing this sem break. DO OR DIE. MUST GET IT. I just wanna know how it feels like. HAHA. Not like I'm really gonna go around and show people since y'know my tummy is really bigg :( boo. But yeah. Just for the experience :D if it turns out alright I might keep it for the long term but for now I am planning to keep it till it heals and just take it out. HAHA. I have issues. I like doing things for the fun of it. Its nice to know the different levels of pain I guess. ISSUES. 


HAHA. I did something really retarded. HAHA I called my awesome friend Gabby to ask her about digpho and like she asked me to check my email and I started looking around for my phone, only to realise my phone was on my hand coz I used it to call her ._. OOPSIE. HAHA GTG! THE 9 OCLOCK SHOW IS STARTING :D BYEEEE 


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥

So many things have changed.

So sick and tired of the many things changing in my life. The many people who used to be a big part of a life who are just not there anymore. Maybe the problem lies with me. How I am sick of people's bullshit. Or maybe I am just tired of constantly being taken for granted. It is really tiring. To have to deal with people who can carry on with their lives, pretend everything is okay and still push the blame to you for the fall of the friendship. Well done. I guess maybe I am too sensitive. In a sense that I actually get really hurt whenever I find out I'm lied to. I get really upset when I find out that despite being thee for people, when things get better they're gone. Like, it just makes me feel so used. I used to be able to take it. Just be content with being able to help them when they needed me. But I am just so sick and tired of doing so. Them constantly hurting me, being so self-involved just broke me. They broke the compassionate side of me I guess. I can't completely blame them. I wasn't strong enough, I wasn't caring enough and I wasn't good enough. Maybe I demanded a little too much for them to care about me a little. Like, really find out how I am doing. Not come to me and say 'Hey how are you?' and then carry on about themselves. If it is about real family problems I can understand. I will never get upset about someone complaining to me about the shit they deal with at home. Because I know how that feels like, to be hurt by your own family is just wrong. I never really got the full privilege of familial love, thank God for my dad. But if you're just gonna talk to me whine about how you are not getting the person you have a crush on, how you are upset about having to fulfill your responsibilities and just being obsessed about problems that you refuse to let go, please know I am not the person to turn to. I just cannot handle it or be nice to you because I feel that you just want attention, not real concern. I will not be the kind of superficial person who will pretend to care when I really don't. What's the point? I'm sorry I just like to keep it real. I know I may seem like a mega mean bitch right now. Maybe I am. I guess I am just tired of being people's second choice. Like being a substitute when the friends they want are never around. I'm not asking for people to like really worship me and like see me as a huge awesome person just because I was there for them.I just ask to be appreciated. It would be nice if people actually came to me and just be there. Not asking for anything, just a friend in return. That would be lovely. Maybe things seem to have changed because I changed. Maybe it is really my fault for not trying hard enough. I just don't feel good enough to be there for anyone. I'm sorry if I have hurt you in anyway by ignoring you. I just don't feel good enough to be there for anyone, I'm emotionally unstable, apparently I am not spiritually ready either and I have just been hurt too many times by people who I really cared for. I am scared to care actually, maybe even scared to love. Maybe things haven't changed, I changed. Not like anyone is gonna read this anyway. But if you feel the same way, here's to let you know you're not alone.

xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥

BOREDDDD

HELLOOOOOOO :)
Havent blogged for awhile! How y"all doing :D hahah. School has been really crazy :( Tired Sammy is tireddd. :( Haven't been sleeping well the past 2 weeks :( wehhhh. So much pressure to perform better. My tolerance level has been really reallyyyy lowww. Sigh. So yeahhh. Last IJ lesson today :)! Next week is gonna be my last S&W lessonnnn~ Then the assignment deadlines and exams will come and drown me. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO  :'( Ah wells. I'm tired. Gonna like wait for them to finish up. I swear I haven't been slacking. I actually did a lot today. I just have a really bad headache right now :( okayyy~ BYEEEE


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥ 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D

OHMYGOSH. HAHAHAHHA I ALMOST SPELT HAPPY AS HABBY. HAHAHAHAH RETARDEDDD. Anyways, IT'S MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY TODAY :D hehe I bought him a bottle of red wine. HAHA. Adriel took a cab down to meet me, because I am underaged so he has to buy the red wine for me. HAHA. BUT I PAID OKAY. HAHA. So yeah, after that daddy came to fetch us, we tried really hard to hide the cake, but apparently he saw it when he was fetching us. SHITTTTT. HAHAH, :) but yeah, it was fun. My dad was being bitchy ruining the whole birthday fun. When I switched off the fan he was like, 'Eh why don't on the fan, weather not hot meh?' HAHAHAH. After that we had the cake cutting ceremony :D. HAHA. I almost spelt cake as cat. I love my daddy :) hee. He has always been there for me, supporting me, and just loving me in his own silent way. He may not be the really talkative kind, but he is the really dependable and loving kind :). I love him a lot. He is my motivation to really do well in my studies coz I wanna be able to look after him when he grows older like how he looked after me. Okay, I'm getting really emotional. CHANGE TOPICCCC.


I got back my writcomm test results today :D. I was really dreading the return of this paper coz it was really out-of-the-world kinda hard :(. WEH. But yeah :) I did a lot better than I expected to do. I expected to fail. Really badly. HAHA. But I didn't :D I got 32/40! WHOOOOOTS. WHOOOOOOHOOOOOOO. SO HAPPYYYYYYY. HAHA. I am really not a mugger btw. HAHA, I am just a very lucky girl with a pretty good memory :) so yup, I AM NOT A MUGGER. 


Today was like a roller coaster, day started off kinda bad but went up,up  AND AWAYYYYY~. Roller coaster is the wrong kind of metaphor to use isn't it ._. ... It was like a hot air ballooooon.... Not really.... AH YOU GET MY DRIFT. HAHA. Oh Adriel managed to score pretty good boyfriend points today with my daddy :) coz he paid for the cake and all. HAHA. :) YAY. Okay, I'm gonna go now. 

xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥


P.S THATS ADRIELLLL :D HEHEHE. the girl behind is my cousin. HAHAHA. She's enjoying life seating on the massage seat and eating crackers. HAHAH. BYE.

ONE HOUR TO SPARE :D

Hi guys, I'm back. HAHAH. I AM REALLY BOREDDDD. I swear I'm just gonna keep spamming this blog in my free time, because I have that many things to talk about and I have so many things in my BIG BIG BRAIN :D HEHE Medsoc is fun :) I am really gonna miss medsoc next sem :( Im gonna miss Miss Tess loads. She's so niceeee :D <3 hahaha! And she looks like a teenager I swear, like the first time she walked into class I thought she was one of our classmates. HAHAH. Stupid. So, yeah we learnt about newspapers today, it's really not as boring as it sounds. HAHAH. :) Like we learnt about how newspapers is gonna be extinct soon and like it's gonna be a closed business soon :( that sucks. Not like I read newspapers but it's just sad that another one of our traditional stuff are gonna be goneeee :(. Sigh, first the dinosaurs, then the big cool telephones, the big televisions, the cheap food and now NEWSPAPERS ARE GONNA BE GONE. WHATTHEHELL. :( Really upset about it. Meh, hate that things are just VANISHING. FADING AWAY INTO THIN AIR :(. Boo.

Oh, the girl behind me kept kicking my chair -.- whatthehell and it's like she doesn't even apologize. So mean :(. I get really upset when people walk into lecture late then like not pay attention at all. Like firstly you're disrupting the lecture, and secondly its not like if you come in late your attendance will get marked, if you're not interested just don't come at all. Go do something you enjoy doing rather than come disrupt someone's lesson. Pfft. Ass. Last week, this group of people came in late and like kept making so much noise during lesson. ROARRRRRR. Okay, enough ranting. HAHA. :) I swear Deedee makes lectures quite fun :) Poor girl is sick :( Like, she has a sore throat. There is a flu going around I swear. I don;t feel really well either and like Adriel is sick too :( Janine and Siti are sick too. Gosh, EVERYONE'S FALLING SICK. THE WORLD IS ENDING. IT'S A SIGN. HAHA. I have issues. Oh gosh I am really tired. Still have writcomm lecture coming up. No idea what we're gonna do today. HAHA. Ahh wells :) Gonna go now. Denise says I have blogger syndrome. I agree with her. Every moment I just wanna BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG BLOG. HAHA :) Well at least I know at least one person reads it :) Hee, I love him like crazy <3.


xoxo Sammy Valentina ♥

P.S HAHAHAH GRACINE AND MIMI ARE SINGING KOREAN SONGS. HAHHAHA WHAAAAT. Oh, thats Deedee on the right :D <3